Letting Go Of The Past


Ephesians 4:31-32 ”Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you. ”

Many people come to me and say they cannot enjoy today because of something that happened in the past.Because they did not do something or do it in a certain way in the past, they cannot live a full life today. Because they no longer have something they had in the past, they cannot enjoy today. Because they were hurt in the past, they will not accept love now. Because something unpleasant happened when they did something once, they are sure it will happen again today. Because they once did something that they are sorry for, they are sure they are bad people forever. Because once someone did something to them, it is now all the person’s fault that their life is not where they want it to be. Because they became angry over situation in the past, they will hold on to that self-righteousness. Because of some very old experience where they were treated badly, they will never forgive and forget.

  • Because I disappointed my parents, I will be loser forever.
  • Because I am no longer married, I cannot live a full life today.
  • Because I was hurt by a remark once, I will never trust anyone again.
  • Because I stole something once, I must punish myself forever.
  • Because I was poor as a child, I will never get anywhere.

What we often refuse to realize is that holding on to the past no matter what it was or how awful it was is ONLY HURTING US. They really don’t care. Usually they are not even aware. We are only hurting ourselves by refusing to live in this moment to the fullest.
The past is over and done and cannot be changed. This is the only moment we can experience. Even when we lament about the past, we are experiencing our memory of it in this moment, and losing the real experience of this moment on the process.
Let us now clean up the past in our minds. Release the emotional attachment to it. Allow the memories to be just memories. If you think back to what you used to were. It’s just a memory. It can be the same for all of the past events in our lives. As we let go, we become free to use of our mental power to enjoy this moment and to create a great future.
List all the things you are willing to let go of. How willing are you to do this? Notice your reactions. What will you have to do to  these things go? How willing are you to do so? What is your resistance level?
Next step, forgiveness. Ask forgiveness to our Mentor who art in heaven, forgiveness of ourselves and of others releases us from the past. The course in miracles says over and over that forgiveness is the answer to almost everything. I know that when we are stuck, it usually means there is some more forgiving to be done.
When we do not flow freely with life in the present moment, it usually means we are holding on to a past moment. It can be regret, sadness, hurt, fear, or guilt, blame, anger, resentment, and sometimes even the desire for revenge. Each one of these states comes from a space of unforgiving, a refusal to let go and come into the present moment. LOVE is always the answer to healing of any sort. And the pathway to love is forgiveness.

Mark 11:25 ”And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”

                                                                                                                                

Remembering My Childhood Buddy/Hobby


My love of horses came at the tender age of 8. I was living in a small bario of Saliducon called Tibaol where my parents raised me. My lolo had a horse and gave me a foal as his Christmas gift for me. I named her Nacky Junior. Sound’s funny though. LOL!Whatever…! OK let’s be serious. Do you  want to know more about horseback riding? Alright, I’ll share you some hints.

  • BALANCED SEAT OR THE CORRECT POSTURE. Still makes all the difference in a safe, comfortable ride for both the horse and the rider. Riders not only learn the correct way to sit upon the horse, they also learn about horsemanship, etiquette and the overall terminology associated with riding a horse properly.When balanced seat riding is mastered, the rider will have exercised every muscle, tendon and ligament, from their head to their toes. Being a correctly balanced seat rider is equivalent to doing a triathlon.
  •  KEEP YOUR HEELS DOWN. Why? Because not only does it make you more secure, but it also stops your foot from being caught in the stirrup should the horse spook. Always ride in complete control. As with cars or bikes, the faster you go the faster things can go wrong.
  • PERSONALITY. Personalities play the main role when I put myself as rider and horse together. An outgoing person will usually be paired with an outgoing horse. The horse has to complete the rider, and the rider has to complete the horse. One is not more important than the other. It’s all about the safety of the pair. Personalities have to match. They need to be a good fit.

Riding for me has always been somewhat of a fantasy. It’s my way of catching dreams while leaving the rest of the world behind. ”It’s magical” Problems just seem to disappear. I miss those simple days of laughter, fun, and joy.  I miss my horse, I miss my childhood! I also miss my Lolo, he taught me everything I needed to know about horses. I owe it all to him.